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Comfort food.

I have many different foods that I label as comfort food. This weekend it was chicken tacos and margaritas. Mmmm. It sure made life all better.

Remember those auditions I had? I booked one of the jobs. YAY!! So NATURALLY I went online and bought some clothes cuz that's what you do. Right? Friday I felt so relaxed because I didn't have any auditions and I knew I had a job on the horizon. Saturday ... I got released from the job because I had worked on that show last season and I had a fairly substantial role and they felt it was too soon to see my face on the show again.

I went through all the stages of grief. Well ... I skipped Denial and went right to Anger. Oh, I also skipped Bargaining as there was no bargaining to be done and I went from Anger to Depression. I went from Depression to Acceptance and then BACK to Depression. I stayed in Depression with shades of Anger here and there for about a day. Then I went from Depression to Mexican Food.

Here's the thing ... it's not a good thing and I don't recommend it because eating and drinking away my uncomfortable feelings is part of what has gotten me in this overweight mess to begin with. But I sure did feel better.

DO NOT DO THIS! You guys, it's a really sinister habit to get into. But booking that job and then getting unbooked had a layered meaning to me that I won't get into here and I couldn't pop out of it. To be fair, I'm not really out of it today. I'm still struggling a little bit. But my birthday is coming up and I'm gonna have cocktails with my gal pals and that will make a lot of stuff seem better and easier.

Just remember that when you find yourself 20 pounds up on the scale, comfort eating SURELY will not help you deal with that disappointment. So when you are feeling blue, try meditating or hiking or taking a long bubble bath or some such thing instead. That stuff DOES work for me. This time I just needed a refreshing margarita ... or three.